as much as you were in my past.
But I don't think you can be.
When we're young feelings are blind.
We become fond of people, no matter the circumstances.
So when I left, you stayed put.
I had to figure out how to survive without you,
And you too had to learn to survive without me.
The struggle to stay above water became priority.
Once we learned how to float, we were able to view,
view the relationship we once had.
It now looked so different.
You smiled because of the comfort you remember of it,
but you shiver because it brings a new coldness.
It's so twisted...
Fond memories of acceptance and caring,
accompanied by the feeling of a stranger.
How can I love you and fear you the same?
You know a part of me that my future never will,
but my future is not yours to exist in.
It's like reading an original book and then burning it.
The bittersweet enjoyment of knowing it's content but
never being able to share it with anyone ever again.
I'm stuck in a time lapse,
I don't know how to move on from here.
I need to be let go.
-NorthSlopeWife
-NorthSlopeWife
