Alone

You were in my dreams last night...

I couldn't save you!

I woke with a guilt that I haven't let myself feel yet.

My ideal of love and friendship was not enough.

I was being selfish.

I remember many times you tried to reach out without success.

I am sorry!

There are so many things left undone and unsaid.

I hope you're happy and unafraid!

I hope you feel love beyond the universe.

You were the bravest person I've ever known.

I hope you don't feel lonely.

My biggest fear is that you're alone.

They say you feel your loved ones when they're gone.

I don't feel you and it scares me.

I listen to songs that remind me of you.

I do and say things that I think you would do,

but it all feels empty.

I wish I knew where you were.

I love you, you beautiful soul!

-NorthSlopeWife